Me: I was wrong though you know it.
Ego: What are you talking about? You can’t be wrong!
Me: UUUhhhhmmm c’mon let’s face it! It was a bad call. I made a mistake since the beginning. I shouldn’t have gone along with it. It was wrong, it was wrong and yet… I carried on.
Ego: Are you out of your mind? It’s not your fault…
Me: Oh yeah? And whose fault is it then? Whose fault is it? Answer me.
Ego: How should I know? I know it’s not your fault. Besides even if it is your fault, so what? Are you going to tell everyone that your decision was wrong? Do you even realize what that means? It means that you don’t know what you are doing. It means you are incompetent and useless. Then your word won’t count more than nothing. Everything you have worked for, your reputation, your credibility, the way people look at you, their trust, their faith in you as a leader everything thrown away. Is that what you want?
Me: Of course not. But it’s pretty obvious that I failed and everybody can see that. So as a leader, should take responsibility. That’s what a leader does, I am the one accountable for what happened. Facing my mistake and then take action to amend it. I think people will respect me even more, besides I am human as everyone else. I made an honest mistake trying to make things better, although it turned out the complete opposite. It was a miscalculation which brought this. If I had stopped in time maybe we wouldn’t having this conversation.
Ego: Oh my, oh my! You, freaking idiot, are you blind or what? Yes, human beings can make mistakes, a simple consultant makes mistakes, a simple employee makes mistakes and you give your support and assistance. You on the other hand, NOOO! You are not supposed to make any, that’s why you call the shots, you can’t be wrong, otherwise you get replaced. You get it? The understanding crowd of people, including a directing board or boss, happens only in the movies. There is no twinkle with awe, twinkle with roar maybe! Back to reality, please!
Me: ….So what do we do…?
Ego: Oh finally! Now you are being reasonable. Let’s see…