The many of us, repeat the same thing over and over again. We are eager to learn. I am eager to learn, because I have so much to, so it’s imperative for me.
Thing is, that the learning process is not always smooth and quiet, don’t get me wrong, if it was always that easy, probably I would have learned less and less hehe ;p I am kind of a sucker when it comes to difficult stuff (And I still ask myself: “Why am I always getting in trouble?” Go figure! -_- ). And again, don’t get me wrong I have my moments, I break, I cry, I complain, I whine but the thing is, the final and ultimate thing is, I don’t bend. Not that I am saying it for pride or anything (ok, maybe just a little) but it’s still a matter of fact.
My dear friend says: “Sto comodo se sto scomodo!” which in English means: “I am comfortable when I am uncomfortable!”
Cake tastes like all heavenly sugars and smells like all sweet flavors you put in it.
I enjoy it, you do, they do, we all do. What’s left then? The candles. The number they represent, is it just an angle the way you or I see it?
I am in my late 20s, and I confess that sometimes when I wake up in the morning I just wish I was much older, like 73! Why 73? Why not. Why not 70? or 75? Haha too plain, too mainstream, well 73 sounds like well thought, like I know what I am talking about, but the truth is I don’t. However it sounds kind of cool, because people can’t help asking the questions above. C’mon didn’t you? ;p
Does it sound easy saying what is it that we want? It sounds, but as a matter of fact it is not. Not always and not for everyone. What about the part when we are the ones that should actually ask for what we want?
Do we? Yes? No? Sometimes?
Are we afraid of a NO as an answer? Are we afraid of rejection?
As I have mentioned before, I am not exactly the example of a positive thinker. And to write this single sentence, or to even come to such conclusion took a long time of struggling from my part.
But the realization it’s a first step, obviously. Fortunately I believe in my own growth and see into making it happen day after day. I am getting further away from the fixed mindset, that we are who are, born with certain traits and features which will never change no matter how much we try. If I were to believe such thing, then I would be doomed. To cut it short, I wouldn’t be who I am today and I wouldn’t be willing to learn anymore.
“Emotions just get in the way when you need to get things done, specially when you want to be successful.”
“It’s better not to let people in and see…”
That however, did not stop me from having a hot temper, lose it quickly and honestly quite often. “But why?” I used to think. “I am right”. I knew I was, what I said, what I did, but somehow people failed to understand… and it looked like I was wrong which angered me even more. And just the mention of “anger management” or “anger issues” made me laugh or even furious, depending on the current mood at the time.
I have tried to create a mindset “Find inspiration everywhere” and, I have managed to succeed, but muse?
I am in a dead-end here.
I have a few questions, but somehow I feel like I can’t have easy answers, let alone correct, so pardon my misplacement. What does it feel like to be a muse to someone? Is it a burden? Does it impact your metaphysical entity in any way? Is it a responsibility? Do you need to meet expectations, criteria and keep up?
I asked an Artist, and at first glance it looks difficult to explain, not because he doesn’t know but I assume because in this case words may fail to do their magic. Sheeeeesh…
I wasn’t looking for the definition anyway. I want to know what it feels like. He said it’s an emotional transcendental state. No boundaries, a person, an object which transforms in overwhelming feelings, like a source of energy to produce art non stop. It is a state of mind, so unique and personal that sometimes it drifts away from the object of muse itself.
Credits to Albi a true Artist. Thanks for the pic.
The title might sound a bit confusing, since we often read articles about:
Why people read? Why some of us love to read? Why should we read? What are the benefits of reading? And so on.
However I have never truly nor seriously explored the reasons why some people don’t read or don’t like to read.
I won’t list reasons such as lack of time, honestly that’s bulls*** . We all have very busy schedules, but some manage to find the time to read 50 pages/day and thinking of which, it’s not even that much to ask. So stop making up excuses, if you don’t like to, or don’t want to just say so, there is nothing wrong with it.
I have my moments as well, you know. But I get back from the hiatus, as I feel the urge to read again, as like my soul misses something essential to breathe and my mind feels poor and depleted.
Ok, then enough with me and straight to the point:
Are you wondering what “feast” has got to do with Immortality? Specially considering the fact that “Immortality” happens to be the tittle of one of my favorite novels written by the Czech author Milan Kundera.
Are you? Good! (Y)
Yes, well I can’t help but also link “feast” with the, what I usually call “over+something”.
Let me elaborate, as for example when you overdo, overreact, oversleep, overexert, overestimate and so on; yeah you get my point over+something, somehow associated with exaggeration.
“I don’t feel like working today… Hahaha no wonder… I don’t feel like working in general, in fact. What I want to do is, fool around all day, play some idiot games, pretend I am doing my job when my boss is watching or comes close by…
Mmmm… now there is this girl, I hate her guts… Now what does she think she is. Besides, drop the act b****, you don’t even care… You are pretending too. All your facade that you A-R-E D-O-I-N-G S-U-C-H A G-R-E-A-T J-O-B!!! Please, like I don’t know your real intentions.Besides, what’s with the attitude??