? Really? You have never done something that is forbidden! You are a geek!”
That sunk for a moment. Have I? Haven’t I?
I have always been the type of person, that tries to stick to some…. My first thought was “rules” and recalling from my past, yes I used to think that, but now I realize that it’s not rules. What I mean is that, it is not just the literal meaning of it. I stick to my principles, because I identify myself in them, because they make me who I am. Believe me, I have fought so many, countless battles with my demons (and so many more waiting for me) to be who I am today and I was left hurt with my soul bleeding, making choices that made me suffer of course but trading myself or my dignity, that was never an option.
This probably leads to less friends, probably no promotion. And love life? HA-HA what a joke!
But wouldn’t you rather have just a couple of friends that you know, they are not going to bail on you? That are going to be there for you, as you will be there for them, which also includes, saying some things that might also sting…. sometimes!
Wouldn’t you want to see your face in the mirror and feel pride, that everything you have achieved in your life, be it academic or work is your own merit, unless you are delusional and fill your mind with lies just to feel better. I wonder how much does this psychedelic illusion last?
Wouldn’t you prefer to be on your own, rather than become somebody’s emotional slave? Isn’t yourself enough, because you come first and yes there is a priority, YOU ARE! If you don’t feel ok with you, do you really expect others to?
So the question is: Is it really a matter to forbid or not?
What do you think?